This is not the first time, nor will it be the last time that my teacher Pastor Steve Gray read a passage from G-d’s word that knocked me for a loop, so I can take a very serious look at myself. This passage made another one of those indelible impressions on my mind, heart, body, and soul.
Once again this happened again on Sunday January 28th.
Hebrews 12:16:” and that no one is sexually immoral, or godless like Esav, who in exchange for a single meal gave up his rights as the firstborn.” (Complete Jewish Bible)
I saw that G-d was giving me a warning. This is a real-life lesson G-d was giving me. Don’t throw away your first-born rights.
Every Jew is the first born of G-d.
This is my birth right given to me by G-d.
This is the direct result of the covenant that G-d made with my forefathers Avraham, Yitz’chak and Ya’akov.
This passage sent the fear of G-d through me.
I can’t get these words out of my head.
Esav came out of the womb first. However, our sages teach us that Ya’akov was conceived first.
These words hit home with me:” godless like Esav, who in exchange for a single meal gave up his rights as the firstborn.”
Our sages teach us that Esav even in the womb was drawn to idol worship. Rebecca felt this first hand. She would walk by the place where Torah was studied the baby inside of her wanted out to study G-d’s word. Then Rebecca would walk by a place of idol worship and the baby inside of her wanted to get out.
Rebecca thought she was schizophrenic. Rebecca was told by a man of G-d she was carrying twins.
Esav was two faced. He acted as a man of G-d around his father Ya’akov. When Esav was away from his father Ya’akov he acted G-dless.
Rebecca saw through this act. She saw how Esav treated Ya’akov. Esav was always teasing him. Esav was shooting arrows at him.
G-d please get me right with you. I don’t want to be G-dless. Please L-rd let my thoughts, speech and deeds line up perfectly with your word.
L-rd I fall short many times during the day so please remember I am one of the sons of Avraham, Yitz’chak and Ya’akov. Please murder the inner Esav that is within me.
Please let me remain teachable.
Please keep my ears open to the lessons that are in your word. Let these lessons and corrections that my loving teacher Pastor Steve Gray is giving me penetrate into my mind, heart body, and soul to change me into the man of G-d you HaShem want me to be.
Take the blinders off of me so I can see who I really am.
This is why I love my teacher Pastor Steve Gray.